People, People, People!!!

I need you guys to remind me to update this more...I really enjoy writing on here, but always forget too...I come on here all the time to read everyones blog but forget my own!...
Just a short update...Pete is in Texas and life has been busy!...There ya go!...I will post a new longer blog after Pete gets home and I have the time again...Come on 4th of July!...I am ready for my hubby to be home!

Love you all!

I really need to keep you all updated...

Does anyone even read this thing anyways?...I have not written in here for so long, but I really do think about it all the time! :-)

So Emilie is 3 now!...Can you believe that?...My little girl is 3 years old already...She started Pre-School on base 2 days a week...She loves when she goes...She does all sorts of crafts and plays with all of the other kids...She tells me every time that she comes home that she missed me, but she had fun...I love that she is becoming more independent and learning to do things without mommy or daddy around...
I feel like the time has flown by with her and while I am so happy she is growing into a beautiful sweet little girl, I am saddened because she IS growing...I miss the days of her being a little chubby baby crawling around on the floor and falling asleep in my arms...
Speaking of babies, that is becoming a VERY sore subject with me...For 2 1/2 years we have been trying for baby number 2...Ever since Pete came home from his last deployment in 2007...Nothing...I finally started seeing a doctor at the big hospital in Heidelberg...I have been on Clomid since September with no results...This last week I went back in and he decided to prescribe me Metformin...It is actually a diabetic drug that has been proved to work in women who with PCOS who are trying to get pregnant...It is suppose to help with ovulation and regulation so we will see...I am really hoping to be pregnant this year...That would make life complete...We were wanting 2 more but after going through this we have decided that the next baby will be our last and if we decide that we want another one down the road, we will look into adoption...But physically and emotionally we can not go through all of this to have a 3rd baby, so Pete will be getting the big "V" after the next baby...
Other than that, not to much else is going on in my life...I am about to start the 3rd class of my Bachelors program...Only 18 more to go...While I enjoy school, I cannot wait to be done and start my career...I want to start making some money!...Not that we have any problems in the financial field, I just really want to get out and do something...It would also be nice to have a little more money though...I do not think anyone would complain ;-)...
Ok, I am going to end this now...Feel free to leave lots of comments and remind me to write in this thing more often!...I like doing this more than FB or MySpace!...

Love to you all!

I am slacking!

I really need to start updating this more...Things have been a little hectic lately and they are finally starting to wind down...As soon as I have some freetime I will blog and post some pictures..Hopefully tomorrow or Friday since Pete is off and I can crawl in bed with the laptop and post away!...
Until then, take care!
~~Danielle

Going Home

So I just noticed that I have not posted on this thing in FOREVER!...I am sorry!...We have been so busy here in Florida that I have not had time to do anything!...
Pete already went home last month and Emilie and I will begin our journey home this weekend..We are leaving here to go to Charleston on Thursday so we can spend some time with Kara before we go...We hope that by Monday or Tuesday we will be home in Germany...I have missed it soooo much!...I am ready to get back to our house and our routine!...I am actually excited about being back in Germany..A lot has changed since we came home and I will make sure to update with a longer blog when I get home and settled...
I hope everyone is doing FABULOUS!

~~Danielle

Lagging.....

So I have been inspired to write another blog since Kara finally decided to join us on here again :-)
Things here are good...Pete and I are better...Emilie is in her terrible twos, but is doing great...She is showing improvements in her speech therapy, but I know it is going to be a really long road...I am a little scared about how she will do this summer without having them come once a week...I may just set up a day once a week to go over any and everything Allyn has taught me to use on her...I just long for the day that she can tell me what she wants...It saddens me that she can not do that :-(...
We leave next weekend to head to the states for the summer and let me tell you, I am so uber excited!...I have been couped up in this little apartment for the last 6 months because my husband works such icky hours that we never have the time to go out and do anything fun...When we do get out, it is only to Heidelberg which can get pretty old...I am hoping that next year his hours will not be as crappy and we will be able to get out and explore more...He has still been working 12 hour shifts and they are suppose to be going to 8 hour shifts this week...Go figure!...We are leaving and they change it!...
But anyways, I am really looking forward to seeing everyone from back home...I have not seen my Charleston friends in almost a year and I am looking forward to seeing you all again!...I have missed having fun, real people to hang out with...My friends here are great, do not get me wrong, but it is way different...I actually do not think any of them read this blog lol...I just really miss the friendships that I made in Charleston and cannot wait to be around them again, even if it is just for a few days at a time...
We get to see Lydia the 9th of June!...I am so excited to see her!...It has been a year since we have seen her as well and I hate that!...She will be with us for a month so I am looking forward to that...I love that we have a good relationship with her mom and she trusts me to bring Lydia home without Pete...I think that trust between us all is what makes things so good for Lydia...I cannot wait to see how her and Emilie are together!...Last time, Emilie followed her around and wanted to do everything she was doing...It was so cute!...
So I have also started a weight loss journey...I started going back to the gym and have lost 4 lbs so far...I am going to be joining Bally's in Orlando when I go home so I can keep at it...My goal is to lose 30-40lbs by the time I come back to Germany in September...That way I can be healthier and hopefully it will not be as hard to get pregnant...We found out that I am not ovulating regularly and I have an appointment on the 19th with a specialist to hopefully get on some fertility aide...So if they give me something and we try it the month of June and I get pregnant, that would be fantastic!...But I am ok if it does not work right away...It will give me time to work on myself...
Ok, so I have written a lot...I will blog again, more than likely not until after I am in the states!...
See a lot of you guys soon!

I really need to keep this thing updated more!

Hi everyone!...
Things here have been going pretty good...Emilie is doing her speech therapy meeting at least once a week...So far we are tackling the results we want to achieve...This week though, we will be starting the whole speech thing...She has a hearing test to do on Wednesday and then they will be coming out on Thursday for her appointment...Part of me kind of hopes that maybe she is just not hearing well because of the wax problem she had as an infant...Then they would put tubes in and the problem could fix itself...I of course hope her hearing is fine though because who really wants to put her baby under to have the tubes put in!??...Not me!...I worry enough with her!...She is trying though!...She says more words now but it is still a struggle to get her to try to say them...I think it is because she gets sick of always being asked to say something...I would too if I were 2 and everyone just kept wanting me to say random words LOL...
Pete and I are doing much better...The stress of Germany has really impacted our marriage but we are going to get through it...We love each other and both want to be together...We know that once we get back to the states it will be easier...He is working 12 hour overnight shifts here so he is gone by 4:30 5pm, gets home around 6:30am and then sleeps until 2 or 3 then starts the cycle all over again...I have been overwhelmed with Emilie, the house, and school...Then when you add not seeing my husband or spending time with him it really takes its toll on a marriage...But we will get through it...We have been together for 5 years and married for 4 on Thursday...So we know we will make it...
I am getting REALLY excited to go to the states!...We leave in about 54 days and I can not wait!...We are not sure where we are flying into yet...We are planning on trying for any of the bases on the east coast and then driving to Charleston...I think that will give us a better chance at getting a flight the day we want...Then we will be in Charleston for a few days before heading to Orlando!...Petes mom will be coming to Orlando with Lydia on June 8th so we are really excited about seeing her!...I talked to her mom Kristina and she is more than ok with letting Lydia stay after his mom leaves until Pete leaves the end of June and then I will drive her back up to Toledo...It is so nice that we get along like that!...I am excited to be spending 3 weeks with BOTH my girls!...They are going to have so much fun!...
Well I am going to go watch a movie with doddlebop and hope she crashes early since she ran at the park for a few hours...
I will update again soon!
~~ME

Does it ever end???

So the last week has been pretty hectic...We had Emilies party on Saturday...It was so much fun!...Emilie loved playing with her friends Shelby and Sophie...She also enjoyed the presents from our friends!...Her cake turned out great but it was so big that we took the rest of it to the jail for Petes co-workers to enjoy...
We also had the evaluation from the speech pathologist come out last week and do her tests on Emilie...She ranked as a 3 year old in EVERYTHING except talking/communication...Her other motor skills and developmental skills she was average or above average...So when they added up all the scores she still did NOT qualify for speech therapy...But she said she was writing a letter of recommendation to have them accept Emilie into the program anyways because she is very behind in her talking skills...They think they know what her problem is though...Her tongue has always been a bit on the long side and they think that her mouth is just plain lazy...They think that if we were to build up the muscles in her mouth and lips she will be able to talk better...They are coming back out on Thursday to make a one year plan to get her talking...
I felt like the worst mom in the world though...All of the things that my baby says and that I have always been so proud of her for she did not get credit for when she said them during the testing...She says I love you, but since it is not the actual words, but more of the sound with a lot of O's she would not get credit for it...Since she can not say no and instead says Nah, she did not get credit for it...They pretty much only gave her credit for the small words, like mama, dada, nana and hot...I honestly sometimes feel like I let my daughter down...I know that this is something that I probably had no control over, but I can not help but wonder if I would have done something different that, that she would be talking like a normal 2 year old by now...
We will see how all of that goes when we make a plan on Thursday...I just want her talking to be normal...Right now I am afraid of silly things, like that she will never talk normal or she will be behind in school because of her speaking skills...That scares me so much :-(
There is a lot of other stuff going on right now that has just made my stress level rise this last week and some of you are aware of things...I would rather not go into detail right now and may blog about all of that in the future, but if I seem distant please do not take offense to it...I am just trying to figure out who I am anymore.....................................