Does it ever end???

So the last week has been pretty hectic...We had Emilies party on Saturday...It was so much fun!...Emilie loved playing with her friends Shelby and Sophie...She also enjoyed the presents from our friends!...Her cake turned out great but it was so big that we took the rest of it to the jail for Petes co-workers to enjoy...
We also had the evaluation from the speech pathologist come out last week and do her tests on Emilie...She ranked as a 3 year old in EVERYTHING except talking/communication...Her other motor skills and developmental skills she was average or above average...So when they added up all the scores she still did NOT qualify for speech therapy...But she said she was writing a letter of recommendation to have them accept Emilie into the program anyways because she is very behind in her talking skills...They think they know what her problem is though...Her tongue has always been a bit on the long side and they think that her mouth is just plain lazy...They think that if we were to build up the muscles in her mouth and lips she will be able to talk better...They are coming back out on Thursday to make a one year plan to get her talking...
I felt like the worst mom in the world though...All of the things that my baby says and that I have always been so proud of her for she did not get credit for when she said them during the testing...She says I love you, but since it is not the actual words, but more of the sound with a lot of O's she would not get credit for it...Since she can not say no and instead says Nah, she did not get credit for it...They pretty much only gave her credit for the small words, like mama, dada, nana and hot...I honestly sometimes feel like I let my daughter down...I know that this is something that I probably had no control over, but I can not help but wonder if I would have done something different that, that she would be talking like a normal 2 year old by now...
We will see how all of that goes when we make a plan on Thursday...I just want her talking to be normal...Right now I am afraid of silly things, like that she will never talk normal or she will be behind in school because of her speaking skills...That scares me so much :-(
There is a lot of other stuff going on right now that has just made my stress level rise this last week and some of you are aware of things...I would rather not go into detail right now and may blog about all of that in the future, but if I seem distant please do not take offense to it...I am just trying to figure out who I am anymore.....................................

Our "baby" is 2!

I can not believe that 2 years ago today Ms. Emilie Ann was born...Where did that time go?...I can not believe those 2 years have just kinda flown by!...Next thing I know she will be starting school and then graduating school...:-(

Today we just made some cupcakes and gave her the tricycle that Nana and Papa got for her...We will be doing the whole "party" thing on Saturday...I hope she has as much fun then as she did today, but I am sure that she will :-)

She really is such a blessing and I am so thankful that she came into our lives...Anyone who is a mother knows what I mean...I think my life became complete when I heard those first cries...It will be even more than complete when we have another joy grace us with their presence as well!...

Thank you to everyone who has sent her birthday wishes!...You guys are all the greatest friends I could have asked for!

Happy Birthday to me...NOT!

Uggg...Where do I start?...My 29th birthday was yesterday...Honestly unless you looked at my Myspace or Facebook you would not have know...For starters, some of my so called "friends" did not even wish me a happy birthday...No call, no email, no comment...Nothing...THANKS YOU GUYS!...I will remember that when your birthday comes around...Ok I will not, because I am not RUDE!...It is hard enough when you are away from your family and close friends, the least your friends around you could do is call and say happy birthday...Ok I am done with that now...
Second, my husband was an ass!..Plain and simple!...I mean he was not like that all day but I had mentioned that I wanted to go pick up some steak and potatos and have a nice dinner at home and his response?...Oh well I will help you cook but I can not eat dinner with you...Ummm ok why not?...Because he had a stupid basketball game to play in...He just recently decided that he wanted join the team that the prison has they had a game last night...Mind you this team NEVER wins and the whole league is a joke...Nobody goes to the games and no one even cares...So I was upset and pissed because he chose to go to this game and I sat home with Emilie and ate Burger King...Anyone who lives overseas knows the joys of Burger King...It sucks!...
Third (yup there is a third), Petes package from PacSun came and I am STILL waiting on my stuff from Old Navy and Childrens Place...Are you kidding me?!?!...I could have at least gotten my packages I ordered but NNOOOOOO....So I look on the website and it says that my boxes were mailed FEDEX...WTH???...Apparently it is a new thing...They decided to stop shipping priority to APO address and use FedEx...So it can take up to 30 business days for my orders to get here...Ya, Thanks for that little tidbit of info!...Grrrr....
Emilie did have her 2 year old well baby checkup...Why they call it well baby still is beyond me....They should call it screaming toddler because she does not want some strange guy poking her belly checkup...I swear people probably thought we were stealing all her toys the way she was screaming when the doctor was listening to her heartbeat!...Poor baby...There is nothing that breaks your heart more than when your child is screaming your name and crying for you while some random person is poking her and you can not really do anything about it :-(...The good thing is that they did not give her any shots!...YAY!!...They said that if her immunizations were up to date she does not need anymore until 4 years old...Well the clinic here only has her immunizations that she had done in August...Apparently Charleston did not send her shot records with her medical records so I have to pick those up in May and hope they gave her all of them...I am sure they did though, because she got shots EVERYTIME until this visit...
So anyways, Emilie is 34 inches and 27lbs...She is tall and thin... She is in the 40th and 50th percentile so they say she is good...They are still worried about her talking, but she has an appointment with EDIS again next week so I will update more on that when we know what they are going to do...
So that was my fun filled day yesterday...I am ready to go to Florida...We plan on leaving the end of May and I can not wait!...I am ready to go NOW!...Uggg...I hope the rest of the week gets better!...

~~~ME

Tax Season, Mailroom and Packages, OH MY

What do most people do with their money they get back from taxes?...I honestly want to know...I know on average about 95% say they put it into savings, but do they really???...I said that I was going to put some into savings but now am thinking of cutting that amount in half to buy a new TV :-)...So I am just wondering if I am the only one who says they are going to put it in savings and then changes their mind...We already have a nice chunk in savings and it is not like we NEED the money, but I am afraid I will feel so guilty if I do not put that money in savings...Aggg...Who knows what I will do...What is new this week?...The mail people suck at their job...You would think that they would get on the ball and put out mail when it comes...Instead they are slow and we are just now getting mail that was mailed to us 2 weeks ago...I am still waiting on packages to get to me...All of Emilie and I's summer clothes...It just makes no sense to me when we ordered the Wii Fit last week and got it this week, yet we ordered all those clothes and they were shipped January 24th and we have yet to see them...Let me tell you there will be hell raised if Petes PacSun order gets here before my stuff!...I am turning 29 on Monday...Wow...This will be my last year in my 20's...It is so crazy to think back the last 9 years and see where I have come from and what I have become...I never thought I would be married, with a child and living in Germany...I do know I always wanted those things and would not trade them for anything in the world...Ok, well except Germany...I hate this place...I keep trying to have an open mind and when I came back in December I told myself I would make things different...NOTHING has changed...I still sit at home, Pete still works all the time...He submitted his packages for K-9 and CATM so hopefully we hear some good news about that...We are not sure if they would send him to school and then a new base or make him finish his tour here first and then go to school...I am hoping they will send him now and try to send him to another base...With my luck though, it will not happen...Ok well I have babbled long enough...I will write again soon!...More than likely on my birthday because that is when my munchkin goes in for her 2 year check-up!~~ME